Building Zero Problems

I'm working on a new project & I need your help.

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One of my favorite parts about life are the beautiful connections we make with each other. One of my least favorite parts about life is an excessive need for validation, from other people, especially when I think outside the box. Whether it's 1-time advice from the old man sitting next to you at the bar, or a life-changing decision you're desperately seeking an answer for - being heard is important.

It took me a really long time to understand that I wasn't the only person who felt insecure when I didn't know the answer to something. This next project is something I'm really passionate about. My goal is to get people, from all walks of life, talking and asking questions in a safe space that is meant for nothing more but connection, ease and entertainment. 

I've never felt understood and I've always been selfish enough to think I was the only one. My life has always been a confusing contradiction of trying to make a million things work at once.

From growing up in Texas, as a competitive cheerleader, moving to Utah with a non-traditional Christian background to being sought after in high school as someone who could be saved with LDS Missionary lessons. Going to Acting/Film school in Salt Lake City while being bullied by Sorority sisters and drugged on multiple occasions in Fraternity houses, remaining as an empty shell. Spending time in therapy, failed relationships and friendships, to blogging about my problems afterwards. To finally getting the courage to leave and go to Acting school for a summer in LA. Back to working in the top Talent Agency in SLC & then making a move to San Francisco to pursue a career (my dream career @ my dream company) in Entertainment and Social Media, which eventually all crumbled in my lap. All of this, with an intense obsession for Gangster Rap, Ancient Aliens and my insanely diverse group of friends.

I may not be an expert in advice-giving, but I've seen some shit and I am extremely passionate about people and their stories. 

This platform is now open for discussion:

Let's chat. What's on your mind?

disclaimer: The end goal in this project is building a larger platform to discuss the questions being asked. Thanks for reading!

When does fear become courage?

Have you ever had a shitty week? How about a whole shitty month? Obviously, it's nothing you can avoid if you're human. But, the important question to ask yourself is how do you plan to move forward? How do you continue when things in your life start to change so drastically?

I've always heard, "It's how you react to change that determines what kind of person you are." It's true, change is the only thing in life you can pretty much count on - besides death & taxes. It's never easy, but almost always necessary. You can choose to have negative feelings towards it and you'll almost surely die with your misery and heartache, or, you can choose to let it affect you and run with it. Eventually, you learn to live with it.

But how many of us can say that we've been given a clean slate?

I feel like I've had a clean slate before, when I was 15 and moved to Utah from Texas, or when I was 19 and made the decision to keep my distance from the city I once called home. Whether it's healthy to adopt that kind of attitude, I'm not too sure, but it works for me. The only difference is this time, I have a clean slate with no plan.

I will say, I'm lucky that I have such a dope family that catches me before I fall flat on my ass. I was unexpectedly given a clean slate, but I was lost in the chaos before I actually saw it as that.

I was 17 when I graduated high school, turned 18 in August of that year and moved out of my parents house, into my dorm, a week and a half later. Fast-forward 5 years later, brokenhearted after a bunch of tumultuous relationships and unfortunate circumstances, continually told the person I am, was not an appropriate personality for me to have; I had two semesters left of college and had just been hired full-time at a local talent agency. Adulthood was coming at me in full swing, my love of art was completely unfolding, and my burning desire to constantly create was and is stronger than ever. I decided school wasn't helping me get to where I wanted to be. So, I followed my heart.

I did my best and worked my ass off, but something was always missing. This past year, my depression had reached an overwhelming point - though, of course, you don't see it when you're living it. I honestly don't know what caused the initial spiral (there's a long list), I just know I fell deep and I fell fast.

I'm a worrier. The stay-up-all-night, make-yourself-physically-sick type of worrier. I've had anxiety since I can remember, which inevitably shuts my body down every few months and I suffer from physical illness. I wish I could explain it well enough but I remember one day when I was 3 or 4 years old, and for the first time I started to wonder about my future. Except it wasn't pleasant daydreams - it was panic. A fear of what was to come settled in my brain that day and has never left.

My question for you is: what would you do, RIGHT NOW, if you had a clean slate? Would you see the world? Would you pick up and leave or would find something new in the city you're in?

I'll let you know when I figure it out.

In the meantime, I hope 2016 brings you lots of love, happiness and satisfaction. Oh, and btw - you can have your clean slate whenever you decide to start living again.

PYS,
alliehustle

Btw - I have an interview for my dream job today. I've started creating, designing and producing my v own art projects and I couldn't be more content! You can see/buy them at www.alliehustle.com ! Send me good vibes!!! (:

An Afternoon in the SL,UT

Saturday, August 29th

An Afternoon in the SL,UT

photos/models: (with Instagram tags!)

Jeffers Corn - @iamgangster 

Brandon DelBianco - @waitwhatdelb

Allie Hustle - @alliehustle

Had 2 Make A Couple Bands By My Lonely ♡

This has to be one of my favorite outfits I've put together! 

I've always been inspired by 90s grunge fashion, which I try to incorporate into most of my wardrobe. Growing up during the Kurt Cobain days and looking up to Kate Moss on the runway have definitely influenced my style. 

Choker - Harajuku Alien

Mesh Dress - High Finds

Shorts - The Cobra Shop

Socks - Nikki Lipstick

Shoes - ShopJeen

Make the rest of ur week Gangster AF!!! 

Much love & pys,

Allie ♡

Pretty Puke 4 Mishka

♡

pys,

allie

Di$COUNT UNIVERSE ~~ ♡

Rihanna will forever be my #1 fashion slayer icon... While, Miley is staying up there too!

Rih Rih stepped out in this amazing dress from Discount Universe last night. It reads, 'You Will Never Own Me,' in the front & 'I Will Never Fear You' on the back. Get it!!! This is from their 2014 MBFWA Runway Collection. 

(source: Necole Bitchie)

I discovered Discount Universe around this time last year and I'm always so inspired by their amazingly unique collections!

&&Who can forget Miley's sick photo shoot in her tie-dye Discount tee??

So if you haven't already, check out Discount Universe!! Bc for any millennial, cyber babe living in the digital era - it's a must.

Check them out - Di$COUNT UNIVERSE ♡

pys,

allie

But Officer.. They were fuckin w/ my squad.. & I'm professional.

Halter: O-Mighty 

Happy Sunday, my loves!

Yesterday was so amazing! Spring is finally in full swing & warm weather is swarming the Salt Lake Valley. 

I went on an adventure with my boyfriend thru the Bonneville Shoreline trails in the mountains yesterday. Being able to disconnect with the city & enjoy nature is what keeps me sane on the weekends. 

Having a full time job is exhausting and can be really demanding throughout the week. We all have to stop and remember to breathe deep sometimes. I've been having such a hard time with the transition from student -> professional lately. 

I finished college (after 5.5 years) about 6 months ago. There were periods of time where I was back and forth between wanting to work part-time and wanting to be a student full-time. Now, I'm a full-time talent booker/agent/VO director at the most reputable and longest running talent agency in Salt Lake City. ~ McCarty Talent Agency. ~

I love my job & love how much information I'm learning that I can carry with me for the future. I've always wanted to work in the entertainment industry, & I'm finally doing it!! Which is why I studied acting & film at the University of Utah & have been performing as a rap artist - Allie Hustle (<<link 2 my SoundCloud). 

BUT there is one thing that is really trying and hard for me. Being an artist but not feeling like it because I've been putting myself 2nd. I don't act at all anymore, as well as rapping - I haven't been writing new material or recording because I don't have the drive after I get home from work. I just want to melt in my couch. 

I know, I know. Get motivated, don't be lazy, don't let your life get lived away... Anyway, I don't want you to read this and think I'm complaining and being miz.

 I LOVE my job. I LOVE my coworkers (aka - family!!). I LOVE the people, opportunities and projects I get to work with every day.

But... your early 20s are a really hard time in life! If you've already been through it, I know you remember. & If you haven't yet... let me just break it down for you. ~~~ You constantly face questions like, "am I making the right decisions?" or "will this decision get me to where I want to be in the future?"

It's really fucking scary & really fucking hard on your little body! 

I wanted to write this in hopes of connecting with others who feel like me. I was so out of my element that I actually ended up in the ER a few weeks ago. I suffer with migraines v often & have ever since I was a baby but this time it was different. My body physically didn't feel like it could manage to heal itself, so I got help. 

That's what I hope I can get across. Take care of yourself, u guys! We all go thru the same things (somewhat!). We need to connect and help each other thru it. So that's why I'm here, writing this to you! If you feel sad or not motivated, talk to me! I go thru those feelings constantly & daily. Don't ever feel like you're alone, because you aren't. 

♡ 

(P)huck (Y)o (S)tandards,

allie

Stay Anonymous

Yo my new @lurkhard x @teenage shirt is fucking dooooope!

#stayanonymous

Well, friends... I can't even begin to explain how excited I am that it is finally the weekend! I have so much that's been on my mind lately, I can't wait to finally be able to share it all with you. 

But that will have to be another post, another day. As for now, enjoy your Friday, be yourself, fuck h8rs & do whatever the fuck makes u feel better and happy about life!!!!

pys,

allie ♡

Shade

My new sunglasses are literally my everything!!! ♡

U can shop them & so many other amazingly cute things @ The Cobra Shop ~ !

~~~~ awwwwwwww skeet skeet ~~~~

pys,

allie